I would like to know who I am because I want to live true to who I am. I would like to know who I am because to get to a formidable height, I have to know who it is that is ready to get there – I have to start from somewhere, permit me to call it the very fundamental step, “Knowing who I am”. But before I commence this exciting adventure of trying to find out who I am, I need to first ask myself why I quest to know. It will avert my wasting a crucial chunk of my time looking for who I am in places where I virtually stand less chance of finding the right answers I seek. Like I stated in the opening statement above, I would want to live true to who I am. Thus, knowing who I am will help me know if there is need for a change, which definitely there should be in the quest to attain near perfection.
Most of us might just have this notion, why is it that people keep lamenting on who am I? They may go ahead to chide, “Just give me a break! I’m tired of hearing a point that has been hashed out already”. The constant emphasis on this topic does no further thing than to prove to you how important this topic has become for one to have a complete and peaceful life. But I promise you that I am going to be a little bit different from others. So, just hang on and read on, you will get to discover a whole new thing that you may not have come across before.
Who am I? This legally portrays the quest for identity. The quest to know the person asking the question, “Who am I?” This quest just like any other quest tethers me to a particular disease called identity disease, which I am not so glad saying but it needs to be said, is really deadly and can terminate a life within seconds. However, it is this disease that makes me, the me, that quests to know. This “Who am I?” intimates me on the fact that there is only one me, that is not alike with any other person. Thus, proving that my identity is uniquely mine alone.
One of the things that a kid learns early in life are these words, I, my and mine not minding the real ownership and some other expressions that typically portray possession. They are quite resolute about having things they would call theirs. They would always utter, buy me this, and buy me that. When bought, they would colonize it not wanting to share with anybody. Whenever you try to share, the most prominent reply you would get is, “Is mine!” What causes this? It is the ego attached to that kid’s development that is responsible for this. The quest to be seen as an entity with respect and honour. They do this even without knowing it, but it is just a means through which they express themselves as an entity and answer the question, “Who am I?” This ego was described by Sigmund Freud as the seat of all natural thoughts and as well as the executive that controls governs and regulates the human personality. The main function of ego, he stated thus, to criticize, modify and to reject any irrational drive from any angle. But in kids, this function is yet to develop fully. Hence, their behaviour. It is this ego that prescribes who I am. How? You may have asked yourself now. Because it is the seat of all natural thoughts. Certainly, thoughts define who you are.
Each day of my life, before I started writing this piece, I stepped out into the street to be met by thousands of different faces, uniquely built. Before I walked a space of 10 yards, I would already have seen these faces, some smiling, some looking serious, others chattering away with their companions, then certain other faces looked mysterious. All enclosed in a hidden intent, which is terribly unpredictable. This intent am afraid to say is what makes the me that I am looking for.
The same routine kept happening everyday spurring me into wanting to know the reason for this uniqueness ascribed to those individual faces. However, I discovered that it is basically answered by who they are.
Has it ever occurred to you that at times you begin to wonder who you really are? Even country music projector, Don Williams professed it in a line embedded in the lyrics of his song, “I believe in you”. He said, “I am an ordinary man, sometimes I wonder who I am”. Ordinary, in the sense that he is but just a normal person who does not know but craves to know, even at that, he still doesn’t know. On very many occasions, when I am reading in a silent environment, where I hear nothing else but the buzzing of fresh air, flipping of pages being read and screeching of a pen in what seems to be an unending bout of writing; I drift away to a spot. Here, I visualize who I really am or would want to be. Sometimes I do this knowingly; most times I do it unknowingly. The quest to know who I am is a strong one, which has a role to play in my daily life. Please I absolutely crave your indulgence to drive my point between the use of you and I where necessary.
As you keep wondering, you are bound to stumble on to several opines. Someone tells you, you are this. Another proudly tells you with no sign of contemplation, you are that, and yet another friend deviates from what the previous ones said. Even the so-called enemies claim to know who you are, while the owner of the personality is left to brood and contemplate with regards to who he is. Could it be that you have a totality of what they said you are? Could it be that you are not or even most probably that you don’t know what to believe again about who you are. I can’t even really tell you who you are because I don’t know who you are. But I believe that it depends on what you believe in and who you would want to be. Pictures or rather paintings are created because they are thinkable, flexible to change in terms of re-coating from different angles to make better pictures, so is a personality created because it is thinkable.
In all, it seems very difficult to tell exactly who I am, but very easy to tell who I want to become. It is not about who you are, but who you want to be. It is not about what you are, but what you want to become. It is not about where you are currently, but about where you would want to be. As long as it is thinkable, then it is achievable. In my opinion, the main thing one should be concerned about in life and work is becoming someone you were not in the beginning.